Oy.
I normally get to work at 6:30 to avoid traffic and have about an hour of alone time before everyone starts filing in. Sometimes though, like this morning, waking up early enough to be in the office at that time is just too early.
It was cold (for Texas) last night, which made granting myself a later alarm clock a lot easier.
Noel was at work, so I was sleepy-mopey about not having his good morning kiss to start my day off.
And this weekend was just pretty rough, so I didn't feel rested to start another Monday.
But I got up, let the fuzzy boys out, and started my day. I can't say I'm fully present in this Monday yet, but I also don't want to waste any more time going through the motions.
I have 8 hours of work to put in. Sometimes work is mental challenge, sometimes the people at work are the mental challenge, but mostly this is a personal challenge to do my best at all times, even in situations that aren't my favorite. I've never been good at giving my best when I feel a situation doesn't merit my all.
Tonight we're having dinner with my parents.
I am on day 7 of my October goals, one of which is to workout 5x a week, 30 minutes minimum. So I'll be getting in a 30 minute sweat session before dinner.
And then I'll have an evening with my man, something I miss when he's gone.
All of these things are wonderful, undeserved blessings, not unwanted to-do's. It's so easy after a day of work and traffic and phone calls and so much other STUFF to want to check out. Sit on the couch. Give Noel 20% of my already depleted energy.
But it's the stuff after the working hours - the workout, family dinner time, Noel time - that really matter in my life.
I pray God will show me how to balance it all. I pray He will give me the energy or show me how to use my current energy supplies to invest in the things that will last. My relationships, my health. Not let those things suffer because I am aching for more or different from 6:30 to 3:30. God, please help me learn to serve you with an expectant, generous mind and heart, not just waiting for the day to end. Please help me to find my refresh button once I get home.